It is a surreal feeling when someone that close to us passes. In our rational minds we know all of us will die but when it actually happens it is shocking to the psyche. I am so sorry for the pain you feel. It may not be comforting to you but you will always feel a sense of loss. Each passing day is a day to miss them more. You will also always feel her presence. Stay close to those you cherish, leave no kind words left unsaid and allow others to comfort you. Blessings to you.
When my mother was dying I allowed myself to experience the grief. I connected with people and shared my pain. I let my mother know how important she was to me - asked her what she needed and advocated for her when she was in hospitals ( I'm a nurse) --- sorry for your loss- I know grief stinks.
sorry about this. just remember she will always be watching over you. like your personal angel. she is going to live with god and jesus where she wont feel any pain at all. let it out. cry as much as you need it. dont let others tell you different. its going to feel greif and sorrow. tell her you always loved her and will join her and see her again someday.