How do I apologize to a fellow Marine for not being able to explain why I stayed in my marriage instead of starting a life with her?
My wife and I are now good, but at the time, we were at each other's throats. Constantly arguing, it got to the point where I would just rather be on base all day, all week! We were rapidly heading towards divorce. I was taking classes on base and met this lovely girl who befriended me and showed the same interests as I did. I eventually negated the fact that I was married until I came clean to her and told her my situation at home. She accepted me and actually gave me the love I craved from a woman. It all came to a screeching halt when I told my wife that I was leaving her and separation was a must unless we hurt each other. That's when my wife realized the situation and attempted to rekindle us. I was stuck and didn't know where to go. On one hand, the new girl had so many things in common with me, but my wife, mother of my two (and only two) children, a bit crazy but still my wife. Well, the lovely Marine chose for me, she contacted my wife and pretty much got a story from her and decided that I was not the guy she thought I was. I was devastated, I thought I lost both worlds, when my wife came to me and said "I forgive you. Do you forgive me?"