ugh, need some good advice....... :( so stressed, hellllp.
So im a 19 year old female... i have a 1 year old son, and a boyfriend (my sons father, whom im very on and off with..). I am trying to start school, i want to be a dental hygenist. I live with my mother and father as of now, on the waiting list for my own apartment. I have a few friends, old friends, no new one... and i barley get time for them because i stay so busy.
but there is a few things in my life making it extremely hard for me to focus on anything! One, i have TERRIBLE anxiety. Its mainly over my health... not sure why. I worry about every cancer, illness, disease, blood clots, pregnancy, ect. i could literally go on about it all day! I go from obsessing over one cancer, running to the doctor 120384 times, and then when they verify that i dont have that illness, i obsess over another. It all started about 3 years ago i had a horrible anxiety attack when i found a lump in my stomach. After blood work, and a CT scan i found out it was my spleen, and it was a little enlarged due to possible mono as a child, or something. But i was fine.
I have yearly check ups, female, and physicals. And i am totally healthy.
I STILL find myself obsessing over my health.. idk why.
Well on top of everything else, my boyfriend (of 3 years) and I, are going through a tough break up. he was my first love, he is the father to my child, and he is the only man i have ever felt 100 % comfortable with. Instead of having a calm, civil, breakup.. he is just completely ignoring me. It all started months ago, i developed trust issues, and so did he. We argue over ignorant things, then break up. Well this past week we have literally broken up every day. And to be honest, i dont see things going back to the way they were... :(
Im so anxious about school, daycare cost SO MUCH for my child.. and i feel so overwhelmed because i feel like this schooling is going to put even more stress on me. I dont just want to sit in the house and not make anything of myself, though :(
I dont do anything, i dont get out the house very much... and when i do, i feel happy for a while, soon as i arrive at home.. depression hits!
If i could knock out this health anxiety, and get over my boyfriend i think i would be ok, but idk how to shake this anxiety, or pain from the break up?
so, any advice would be amazing. :( thanks