How do I let go when I know its the right thing to do, but dont want to?
Weve been friends for over a year. It turned into a short friends with benefits relationship for about 6 weeks not too long ago. Then a month ago we broke it off and wanted to remain friends. She started dating, but we maintained our friendship like it was prior to our relationship. Then her and that guy broke up. I kinda assumed we would be able to "hook up" again with each other while we were both single. I want to be friends with her but to be honest, there definitely sexual tension there. I want her. That way. She doesnt seem to want it now. She says she doesnt want to ruin our friendship cuz it almost did last time. I know im wrong but it kind of annoys me that "he" could have her, but now I can't. It makes me feel like Im not good enough or something. For whatever reason, I feel bad about myself when Im around her now. I dont feel a friendship bond, I feel rejected. This friendship is no longer good for my self-esteem and I think I want to move on. Thoughts??