PLEASE HELP Is there something wrong with me?
When I was in 2nd-7th grade I was very over emotional and was bullied for it and other things. Constantly shunned by my piers. My best friend in school was only my friend because I had no friends and was eventually shunned by her too. In 8th grade something happened and I stopped caring what others thought and life was great but now I feel my emotions are almost completely gone and I hate it. Even when me and my mom have arguments I feel almost nothing. Even when I want to feel something I can't get those emotions to come out, like they are locked up inside me and I crave emotion both good emotions and painful emotions. Sometimes I wish I would just cry my eyes out in a sad part of a movie, but no matter how hard I try I can't. I have felt what it is like to be completely emotionless and I hate it and will regret that moment for who knows how long. What happened was my brother hurt his leg and was crying and I just walked up to him looked at him and walled away... I don't know how I could have ever done that to him and it makes me feel horrible now. But the coldness I felt was so horrible I never want to feel that again. I want to feel overwhelming emotion but how?
If you read this question please answer even if it is just yes or no any thing will help please.