What would you do in my situation? Any advice?
My husband and I have been together for about 10 years. The other day I realized a condom was missing. I asked him about it and he said he didn't know where it was, and that he is not a cheater, and that he would never do that to his family. But I had pulled him aside into our bedroom and the whole time I was sitting there he kinda sat on the bed while I was worrying and thinking and he was kind of anticipating and waiting to see what my reaction would be. I found that strange. I think after 10 years I would know if he was lying, and I kind of felt like he was. I told him, well it's not here so where is it?!! And he said, I have no clue. So I told him, "well, you better start looking for it!" And he searched around but of course didn't find it. I SO want to believe we could have used it and we both forgot about it or that we opened it and never used it and then threw it away. I am on the pill so we rarely use condoms so it would have been a month or two ago if we threw it away. Any advice or thoughts? I don't think I can let it go.