I am bi-polar. Diagnosed 15 years ago. Finally found Zoloft works for me. I felt like dying all the time. Not like killing myself, but just never waking up. I'd wake up and say, 'Oh shit, I'm awake' every day. I felt no happiness or hope. See a dr. If you can't pay for one, find the nearest free clinic. I went there in between insurances. Do it NOW. You may have to try several antidepressants. Give each of them about 6 months, unless you have horrible side effects. I will have to live with cottonmouth all the time, but I won't stop mine. Good luck. write me anytime.
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Stop thinking in negative way.Do some exercise,every day!Very important!Also talk to people.Remember no one would help you,if you don't help yourself.I lost 3 years of my life in depression,just stop think on things that make you feel like that!Start doing something new in life,some hobby.Also reduce sugar from your eating habits,because it increases apathy.
Awe darling I'm so sorry to hear your at the stage of self mutilation from your depression . You need to seek professional help as soon as possible. This is a serious matter and you do NOT want it to escalate any further . I also suffer from depression and deal with extreme P.T.S.D ( post traumatic syndrome disorder) I can have more than one p.t.s.d episode on any given day..A certain smell, time of day, color even a certain song can trigger off a memory of the most violent event In my life.I did not seek help for many years, because of that I was living a destructive and out of control life. I would do anything to avoid sleep..I mean, ANYTHING! Because when I did sleep, i would relive that horrible night.. I struggle with that horrible night on a daily basis, but with proper therapy and medications, my life is much more manageable. My self destruction has stopped and I was taught certain "life's" tools that helps me deal with my p.t.s.d.. I had to accept that was and will always be a part of my life, but because never will it be MY LIFE!!.If there is anything you got out of my little story,remember one very important thing.YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! YOU CAN GET BETTER...
Stop being selfish and thinking about your plight. Look outside of yourself...help others, help your parents around the house (chores?) start cooking for the family (how cool would it be to have dinner for your mom when she comes home from work?), volunteer for the community, volunteer at a pet shelter? Life is wonderful........you'll see.