Should I do this?
I just got out of a relationship that totally left me utterly done with life. I knew her for 5 years and all of a sudden it was over... I'm slowly getting over it but I still have relapses where I crave for her again, but I know she won't come back. So I've decided to enlist into the Air Force and do Explosive Ordinance Disposal. Basically diffusing bombs on the battlefield. I know the chances of death are high but that's not the reason why I'm doing it, it just looks cool to me. But I am so depressed. I want to do this job but idk if its cause I want to do it, or if its cause there's high chance of something going wrong... can someone please help?