It's not bad... it's normal. I suspect that you are a lot like me; we give our hearts fully and then it's next to impossible to get it completely back again. Usually you should focus on the good memories, but in this instance it's best to remember what a jerk he was. Concentrate on that; remind yourself daily that you deserve better, and you will get past this.
it's not real love it's just what is left over try and move on you don't want to end up crawling back to him if he walked all over you once it's bound to happen again be smart about it and ignore those feelings for a few months
With all due respect, I shared this with my students. Before becoming to involved, this is a test for both a man/women/girl/boy. This takes an assistant. The person being tested is place in a standing position. The take a lighted candle place it by the person being tested ear, not to close, the other person blows into the opposite Ear of the testing person. If the candle goes OUT, need to find someone else. Yes, it works also with a flashlight, this takes only the two people, same procedure, but done in a darken room. Now if you see the BATman signal on the wall...well you know. Moral know the one your with!