What's happening to me?
I'm slowly deteriorating mentally, and due to what? First, my memory, then my morals, then my emotions altogether! I don't feel anything anymore, I am an emotional vegetable: alive, but doing nothing. Nothing fazes me anymore, it's almost as if my mind just.... gave up. And now I'm losing it! I am growing more and more insane every day, and I don't know what to do. It seems as if there is no cure for what I have, because, quite frankly, there isn't. It's the disease that knowledge brings, that slowly creeps up on you, and it takes over your mind like some kind of sadistic creature and its prey. Knowledge drove me to this state of insanity; nothingness, rather. I don't know who I love, I don't know truly care for anymore, I don't know right from wrong, I don't know.... I just don't know. If only I could somehow reverse past events and make it so that I never came to know, that I never came to experience, the very monster that is destroying me little by little.... I need help, and I am absolutely not going to an asylum or a mental hospital. There is something wrong with me, but it's not me.... there is so much I need to say, and so much I can't say. I'm dying on the inside! Can someone please help me?.... Anyone?