Why do i keep hurting myself?
please read my other questions. well i started to talk to this girl again it started when i sent her a thing for her birthday. two text art things a happy birthday sign and a cake. she liked it. we started talking again and i still liked her she was the first girl i had a real relation ship with yet in most peoples eyes it was not anything seriouse.because the only thing i did was siting next to each other. i would get butterflies just sitting next to her. we never kissed and held hands maybe once but i liked it just like that.anyway i found out she has a boyfriend. and she said i know the guy. i ended the topic there and acted like i was cool with it. i wasnt. i dont really want to talk to her any more. i know that's selfish of me. because when i wrote her that happy birthday i thought about her because i was lonely . its my fault, i know that. i just wanted a second chances she has given to every guy except me. i feel like a failer because i lost the greatest thing i had. and its not fair of me to stop talking to her because shes taken. i'm not the greatest looking guy out there so getting a different girl is out of the question my question is: whats my next move.