What do I live for?
I have hardened my emotions to be resistant to pain and unwanted emotions. All I do is sit at the computer playing video games or browsing the internet, adding to my massive store of knowledge my mind contains. And my hardened emotions make it hard to love anyone or feel happy, I really find it hard to feel anything other than cold emotions ready to kill on command if my life is endangered unless I skip my ADHD medication. All the jobs I want have something to do with killing or designing things the military will use for killing or making sure they kill without being killed. Is being an emotionless drone really a way to live? I don't cry at anything anymore, not even the thought of my uncle who I lost to cancer.