and this one weird fear, but the fear of not being able to be contacted. i will walk downstairs and then back up just to get my phone, in case someone has to tell me something. and then i start to think what if they use fb to tell me? so i bring my ipod along. and i check it offten, in case someone told me something important. and then, instead of checking for notifications on my ipod, ill be like what if something went wrong and it didnt tell me? so i open the app also. and if i dont have anything with me, then thats all thats on my mind, like what if something bad happens and i dont know about it?
Losing someone I love. I always tear up just thinking that some day they're going to go away, and I can't stand it. I also fear going before someone I love, and the pain that they will go through when I'm gone.