Someone please please tell me how to cope with this
I have had a crush on my best friends older brother since last year, the 7th grade. I have always wanted him, and now I am 14. He will be 17 in April. Well, I was at a sleepover at my friends house a few days ago. We played truth or dare and we had to kiss. The Dare came up again, and when my BFF wasn't there, we started to make out. Then he told me to come to his room when my BFF fell asleep. I did. I am ashamed of losing my virginity now. I wasn't at first, because I thought it was love. It turns out it wasn't. I am so so very hurt and scared. What should I do? I can't tell anyone. I have cried every day since because of how naive I was. I have made such a huge fool of myself. My heart beats rapidly every time I think about it, which is abut every minute or so. I shake, and I haven't been able to eat since then. I feel so sick, I throw it up. Please please, tell me what to do.