Have you ever heard the saying," Laugh, and the world laughs with you forever. Cry, and the world cries with you for only a day."? Grief is one of the loneliest emotions there is. I'm still in heart wrenching grief after my son died. Years ago, I was in grief from a loss of. a true love which I still think about 35 years later. Time. Step by step, breath by breath. Go through the motions of life so you don't forget them. If you find you need someone to talk to, do as Koichan says and find a therapist. First order of things..you must get sleep. No sleep, no recovery. You're not alone, it just feels that way. Keep a journal and write in it every thought and emotion you have. Soon, you will be able to see improvement in how you view things. But use this journal as your sounding board. And don't even think about doing something that can never be undone-like harming yourself. You'll just put others in the same grief you're in. That would be wrong.
Definetly, everyone goes through different feelings and pain, but your not alone a lot of people go through it, and eventually everyone will. Just get a friend that you know can help you go through it. I was there for my friend when her mom died.
I've lost many loved ones in my life. I came to the conclusion that grief is one of the most selfish things there is, meaning you simply can't share it with anyone. It's just something you have to endure alone.
Nicole, you know I'm here for you...right? But, it's okay if you need someone else's perspective, it may take a village to help you feel better; not likely one person alone can do it for you. In fact, no one can do it FOR you, only be there for you to hold your hand. Hugs to you, Dear.
Getting out all the anger, disbelief, guilt , tears etc takes time to grieve through. Each year it will weigh lighter on your heart. The most emotional part for me was the heaviness of my heart. That sort of sadness rips you to the core. It's now 37 years later & I still miss him but I now accept that back then it was his time to go. Talking here I now feel the need to take a trip to visit my dads grave which I will do. Thanks for reminding me how much I love him. hope I helped you cope with your loss.