why do I snap at my parents so much?
I always snap at my parents or I'll yell at them and I don't like it! My mom came up to me some time ago and she told me that she and my father are afraid of me. And that really hurt. I guess I'm still mad about the times my mom hit me over the head or when my dad slapped me. Or how I never see my father show any kindness to my mom so I'll snap at him even tho he's a 79 year old heart patient(don't ask why he's 79 it's a long story and yes I am 14). I guess I'm still mad at my mom for not standing up to my dad, or for the fact that they sent me to a school program that I never wanted to be in and each time I tell them I want out they tell me that the education program is best for me even tho I'm failing some of the classes, and now I'm separated from my friends and they're basically the reason my boyfriend broke up with me (to much distance and we were keeping it a secret from my parents since they hate all guys). But I should be over that by now right? I just want to stop yelling at them but I can't help myself. If my friends come over and we tackle each other my mom will come in and give them a dirty look when they aren't looking and I'll start yelling at her and then she'll call me over dramatic and I'll just break down. sorry for the big paragraph. And don't just say I need to talk it out because I'll just end up yelling at her. Please I really need some advice. Thanks.