My life's gone so far downhill the past few months, help, Suggestions?
Okay, I'm thirteen an in the past few months my life has been going south. It all started when my dad was at work and my mom was drunk, I ask her for help on my homework and that lead to a large argument between us. she started calling me some pretty nasty things I won't list, and I recorded her saying them so my dad would hear what she tells me when he returned home. she got angry and violent, and fall/tackled me when I was already sitting on the floor. I used my foot to get her off of me sense I was blocking the rest of my body from her. She got even angrier and called the police on me saying I attacked her! they came said I was lying and evenly left, and after they left she made me delete the recording and not tell my dad else she would call and press charges for violence. the next day I told my dad and now my parents are getting divorced and my mom will be moving out of the house. That's fine but how my dad works I almost never see him, leaving me alone most of time. To make my matters worse at school I only had a handful of friends, that a few days later they chose to make a rumor about me being gay. I knew they weren't really my friends at that point, but I was left without any friends at school and constant bullying being called the Gay kid. I was left like this for a month and I started to become depressed and evently got depression. I was driving myself crazy,crazy was what It felt like with no one whats so ever to talk to and the bullying at school, and my mom's now dislike for me in general. I began to become fixated on the end of the world and I was ready to die, I don't think I would commit suicide but I was in a messed up state of mind. Well as the beginning of December came around I got more excited for the end, until this one kid who Im fond of started sitting with me at lunch. He became my only friend and slowly my depression seeped away from me, and without him I'm not positive I would be alive right now. Now in January nothing has changed at all except I'm thinking only friend, only felt bad for me and was nice. An I'm slowly starting to feel depressed all over again and don't want to repeat my last mental break down... ps- I'm not sure no one likes me, I'm always kind to others, respectful, honest, loyal, and generous. Thank you if you've read this far.