GAH! Why do these questions always bring up bad memories?! We have no idea how your mother treated you, you can cry or scream even laugh if you feel it's right. I don't know how I can help you without any more details.....And I'm sorry that happened... :-/ Stay strong <3!
Hay just keep your head high I know it's hard it's about the hardest thing you will ever go thru and is only going to get harder but the more u think of her and keep her memory alive the easy it gets for u and all so sorry good bless your family