Why do I keep crying?
I am trying so hard to get over him, but its impossible. I cant imagine loving anyone as much as him. He was literally my first love and bf. Its been 2 months since he ended it, but I still tear up. I feel like crying when I see him smile, be silly, talking to other girls that are mutual friends, when I hear him play the cello I feel like crying, when I hear him say something that he said to be, whether its just 'Noooooo' or 'I'll teach you to skateboard' my heart brakes all over again. No friends are help, cause they dont understand. I know, im young, only at 14, but I really cant bear it, hes always there in the back of my mind. And Im not even going to the same school as him next year, and I really really want to go to his school (I still might) but at the same time I dont want to go to his school. I like that feeling of being in love, but at the same time I hate it. I dont want to get over him because then I kinda feel like Im 'betraying' both him and me. I really need help. :'(