What helps you to care and be motivated when you feel this way?
I have intense emotional feelings: I feel guilt over being manipulated (feeling bad about the long hours in my room, and not having time to interact with people because of it.) and feel bad about a fight with my mom. in order to avoid the heart pounding, shaking anxiety from these emotions, I've allowed myself to go emotionally numb. that really helps, but it also blocks out my ambition, and my motivation. I have an essay due wed: I need to be diligent and work hard. normally, as odd as this sounds, I love to write papers. I like to think "philosophically" about my topic, and give in depth. But, because I feel so dead inside, I'm having a hard time even caring about starting. how can I be motivated while feeling this way? how can I feel passionate and ambitious? it's either numbness, or anxiety. my "over-active guilt organ" makes me feel guilty after a comment made, about being busy in my room, causing me angst. I can't write in angst. anyway, sorry for the essay, tips?