I have terrible angry rampages (see details)
they take over me and i cant control them. its like im being possesed. my dad doesnt give a crap about me he is a horrible father. .it fuels my anger and i want to kill and/ or harm him during these rampages i need help what can i do? i have though about killing myselg many times and running away but i cant bring myself to do it i want to be taken away from my misery. when ever i say im going to call the cops he yells at me and says DO U WANT ME TO GET ARRESTED? i dont know why my mom married him abd i need help to know how to deal with him.