Why exactly do I feel this way around my family and how can I stop it?
It's just a unexplained feeling I have when around my whole family like I can see them all laughing and smiling and just so HAPPY, but then here I am having to act like I'm happy wearing a fake smile and feel like am not wanted around. I am always feeling nothing, but pity most of the time and I now am starting to be alone away from my family like departing from them and am every day faced with these thoughts of self harm and even worse more things. I hide my feelings deep inside from everybody and lie saying I'm alright because I think it's my fault and own problems to deal with myself I mean most usually I can handle things, but on some occasions I can't. And I find it hard to concentrate with reality like my mind is somewhere far off.... Is STUPID and I hate it!!!!