How can I forget him?
It's been more than a year since I violently had my heart broken by a guy who just didn't give a shit.
I've dated four guys since, one of which I fell in love with- he left me not long ago.
Every time it goes wrong, however, my thoughts go back to him.
He wasn't perfect, his acne was bad, his English was sometimes weird- but he was my first real love, my first sexual experience- my first everything, and I loved him with my whole heart.
Long story short, his mother forced us apart. The big problem is, there was no 'clean end,' it was a long, suffocated, forced end that left us both lost. In a relationship, it's ended because one is no longer interested or both people are no longer interested. We were still madly in love and just didn't know what to do.
I'm so tired of feeling angst over him. I can see the signs that he's still interested, and I tried to invite him to be friends again, but his mother has scared him away.
I just want to move on. It's been so many hours of this 'why, why, why.'