Finishing out my major in Physics, from there learn as much as possible from all the geniuses in history, Physicist's/Mathematician's/Philosopher's separately on my own. Maybe go back to continue on in advancing my degree. Then trying to pick out patterns is this extremely weird, yet elegant seeming, reality. And ultimately see if I can strip away all the unneeded contexts that my (and likely our) brains like to project onto more general principles, so that I can see them for what they are. If I totally fail, then I will fail trying. Doing anything else, I would probably rather be dead. I feel this is the only way I could ever really respect my own existence. It's going to be a tough ride, and I may have no hair at the end of it, but that is OK.
My greatest challenge has been to civilize the theological gods. Christianity fills the future of mankind with fire and flame, and made its God the warden of an eternal penitentiary, in which most of the sons of men were to be imprisoned forever. Yet, I have been blamed for putting out, or trying to put out, the fires of hell; for depriving the world of this Christian HOPE of HELL!!
I want to do whatever I could to drive from the human heart the superstition of religious eternal pain. I want to put out the fires of an ignorant and revengeful hell. I want to put out the fires of god’s hell with the tears of human pity.