Is this an obsessive train of thought? Do you think about it alot...? Maybe you should consider talking 2 a professional, 99. I may be a mixologist but, Im no phycologist. So, I have no real qualifications 2 give you an answer 2 ur question. Plus Im 2 narsacist 2 want 2 kill me... P.S. as a Mixologist, may I suggest u not drink. Alcohol is a Depressant. Drinking may cause stinking thinking if you're already feeling down....
Thinking of death is natural and normal, but I have learned to live for the day. I try to look it as one of those bridges I will cross when I get to it. No point wasting life on mulling over death! Carpe Diem my friend
The same thing happens to me. I think about bad things i did in the past. Then I start saying stuff like "man i shouldn't have done that. I should just kill my self" And for some reason i get all hyped up and stuff.
Life asked death "WHY DO PEOPLE LOVE ME BUT HATE YOU" death responded "BECAUSE YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL LIE AND I AM PAINFUL TRUTH." So don't worry enjoy the life before death and be prepared to face the death and the life after it.
Maybe your are just maturing and starting to refect upon the complexities of life and death... The whole cycle of humanity? I think we all reflect on death with new understanding as we pass through seasons of our lives. Just use these thoughts to learn all you can.
You are human. Since the dawn of man we have been concerned with dying and the after life that was created to explain it. We are full of wonder. We are human. This is why we create and invent. This why we have evolved as far as we have and why we will evolve farther. We wonder. We are the only creatures that wonder.