What does this poem of mine seem to you and is it good or bad?
Why is so much pain inflicted upon me?
I want to be happy so why can't I just be?
My heart aches and hurts almost everyday
I guess it's my fault and I'll have to pay
Only if life was meant to be perfect and beautiful
Then maybe right now I would not feel so pitiful
It's a battle I must face alone miserably
But in the end I know it will just be terribly
As tears begin to stream down my face
My heart soon starts to beat at an unbalanced pace
Everyone walks past me wearing a smile
It disgusts me so badly that I turn bile
Why is it I don't feel loved or wanted around?
Is it maybe perhaps I don't make one single sound?
I shudder and dread at the fear of this
That my family just wants me to depart from them and dismiss
I stir deep into my thoughts in order to think
While at the same time I'm trying to hang onto what seems like a brink
I right now am heading for a nervous breakdown
But people instead of help rather laugh and call me a clown
If it is because nobody wants to take the blame
Then just put it all on me and I'll gladly feel the shame
I love you all very much my dear family and this be a true clause
And if nothing else I think I deserve at least one last applause....