Live it.
Live it well!
dream like you'll live forever, live as if you'll die tomorrow. :)
Do what you do best! What are your hobbies?
What do you like the most in your life? professionally speaking... think of ways to generate money from that passion. Work hard, extremely hard.... Success is Imminent. Then sit on your couch and help others by answering on Ask.com like me.. haha lol
Have fun but don't make any bad decisions. Sorry if that sounded corny.
Write a bucket list. Then do everything on the list. :D
Experience things that make you happy as most as you can. I think that can be many things and only you know what that is and what it will take to make it happen. Good luck.
Being happy is a choice.
If you are attracted to something, it will be attracted to you.
That means .. if you choose to be sad or unhappy ..you will be.
In all seriousness .. when I was younger .. in my teens .. I felt VERY much like that. I never felt I fit in as much with my peers at school, mostly because I just wasn't a 'follower' .. Sure, I had friends, and as much fun as the rest..but, I was sooo shy and rather reserved as a teen. As I grew older, and of course fell in love, got married and had a family of my own ..that's when my self confidence really took hold. Mostly because, I let myself be 'happy'. We endured some really tough times in our younger years .. been through a lot .. But .. I never lost my faith in God .. My ability to appreciate and care for my family .. and I found that life had more to offer than I EVER anticipated.
Now that my kids are grown up .. and I am enjoying the life of being a grandmother .. I find imense satisfaction in knowing I found my niche. Besides working full time .. am still a full time mother, wife and grandparent .. I also find an enormous satisfaction in helping others .. both human and animal. I am very involved with animal welfare. That is what makes me 'tick'.
You have to find what makes YOU 'tick'. What makes you feel alive and a healthy and positive contribution to your community.
I admit, although I didn't have the greatest childhood, I grew up in the days where 'children were seen, and not heard' .. yet it seems to pale in comparison to living with abuse, like you have described.
I can understand your desperation, and even your tendancy to withdraw..but, you are 22 years old now. You are not a child being subject to THAT environment any more. It's now up to you to make the choices in your life. YOU are in the drivers seat .. no one else .. but YOU.
I know this may sound corney and distant but .. only YOU can change your current reality. Don't let your past define who YOU are. Granted, you haven't had an upbringing with two supportive and nurturing parents. Granted you haven't had role models to follow .. but .. I have NO doubt in my mind that you are an intelligent human being. Intelligent enough to know right from wrong, good from bad.
It's what you do from NOW on that counts. You can make a choice .. You can choose to stop being a victim, and start taking control of your own life. I don't know you, but I can only empathise, and advise you to get help .. talk to someone...(even your doctor) who can point you in the right direction, and perhaps help you hone your skills to help you get past such a traumatic childhood. This may also be a good time to ask God for help .. Help .. not miracles. Having faith in God provides you strength to endure .. and gives you hope. Without hope, you have no chance of changing ANYTHING.
No question about it, it won't be easy to overcome your past .. but, what's the alternative? You have a life in front of you. look FORWARD ..not BACK . It's time to make a choice to either live it .. or let it continue to torment you.
You will find your way .. the only person holding you back .. is you.
Slow Kill Holocaust
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dtCpMilUtdI
The Story of Your Enslavement
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xbp6umQT58A
Schools are prisons
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_8RulhBVzbk
The Deliberate Dumbing Down of America
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHT3q2zzqUc
Rothschild Family
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=onWb_ripZ3c
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYCCB0Q7xUw
Banks
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JZGiwNJw8E8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G9IH-XKQpOI
The Truth About Your Birth Certificate...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cfnJ1rOFK7o
MEET THE ROCKEFELLERS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mDNlftoOeU
There are many aspects of the world 'out there'. We live in a bad, indignant, immoral, even ambigigous and complacent world for the most part...however, there still exists goodness, elation and hope. I, personally, live in a very small aspect of thaworld .. MY world, which encapsulates me, for the most part, pales incomparison.
I surround myself with family of course, and the people that can provide me with a positive influence. That's how I control MY reality.
That's not to say, I don't pay attention to cruelties of the world around me. I do. I watch the news, and it pains me to see what is happening all around this globe. Unspeakable cruelties and down right evil.
But .. I don't let THAT define MY world. I also choose to see the good in the world...and hopefully continue the struggle to keep MY world in balance..If I couldn't .. It would consume and destroy me.
For all the bad .. there is good. Ying and Yang .. You just have to be willing to see it. I have a feeling you refuse to..It's not because it doesn't exist, it's because you choose to do so.
As for God .. It doesn't matter what the world thinks what or who God is .. it only matters to me. I choose to believe .. I feel the teaching in the bible have some sustinence when it comes to principles of living in such a reched society. Monogmany, family, honesty and integrity, the power of positive thinking .. THOSE are the motos I choose to live by .. because quite simply .. it works. Am I fooling myself.. perhaps .. but like it said .. It works at least for me.
I am not as much an idiot as you think I am .. I am fully aware of the crap that is going on in the world we live in .. But, I choose to live the way I do .. Because I don't want to live in constant fear... And and I most certainly don't want to watch it. Suck the life out of the ones I love.
As a matter of fact, there isn't day that goes by, that I am not thankful for the life and the quality of life I DO have. I am fortunate enough to have people around me that are a positive influence and we make the best out of what we have to work with. Sure, it's not always 'a day at the beach' .. But there are more opportunities to smile believe it or not ... It would astonish you.
I am not wealthy, not interns of worldly riches .. But, I have a life filled with very loving and supportive people .. Who I choose to be in it. Health, love as well as hope and appreciation are very important components in MY life.
You call that .. "fooling myself" ... I call it "putting life back into living". I seem to be doing just fine.
So instead of pulling your big girl panties up .. stepping up to help make a difference in the world .. you choose .. EMPHASIS ON 'CHOOSE' ... to wallow in such despair. Give me a break.
If you are not part of the solution .. YOU are part of the problem.
I empathise with your upbringing .. yes, that was a horrible experience. Granted. But THAT does define who YOU are .. unless you let it. You want to wallow in self pitty and despair .. Go ahead.. fill your boots.
I will continue to do what I can for others. I give to charities, I volunteer, I smile at people passing me on the street, I say thankyou to people who take the time to politely hold a door open for me, I work and pay my dues (I refuse to live off "the system"), I spend time with my family, I make the effort to keep in touch with my friends, If I see someone slip and fall, I help them up and show concern ... I know what I am doing to make MY world a better place ..
What are YOU doing?
Do I wish we could live in a world of peace and harmony .. ABSOFREEK'N LOOTLY! Who doesn't.
But, I am also a realist. I don't define myself by the reality of this cesspool you so elloquenty put it. I like you, don't like the atrocities of this entire globe. BUT .. I think the difference is .. I am trying to make the best of what I can't control, by doing proactive things to enhance what I CAN control.
The world isn't the way it is because of ANYTHING I have done. The world has been this way because mankind is stupid, generally speaking. As a whole .. we are a stupid, greedy, self indulgent, egotistical, greedy, ridiculous .. (did I mention) stupid .. race. You know the expression of war .. Divide and conquer .. Well, WE .. as a human race have done exactly that..We have divided ourselves into sects of religion, of race, of control over natural resources, of countries .. just to name a few. We are our own worst enemies and are doomed to fail .. Thus the inevitable 'end of days', 'armegeddon', 'global warfare' whether it happen by a natural disaster or by our own hand. I have no doubt in my mind, it will be the latter. In our lifetimes, we have already witnessed what WE have done to this globe and what we CAN do to it.
My intention is not to be insulting, either. My intention is to shed light on what even YOU can do to rise about this cesspool, and make a difference for not only YOU but the people you care about.
We both live on the same planet, we both see the world from different perspectives as we come from very different environments (geographical and emotional) yet I truly believe attitude is the difference between me and you.
Our world is comprised of both good and bad .. I acknowledge both .. Do you?
I have given you a little insight into things you CAN do to that may help you get your motor running. Things like making a conscious effort to change your state of mind by changing the influences in your life. Surround yourself with positve influences like the people you choose to spend time with, by volunteer work that will provide you with some sense of accomplishment and emotional satisfaction. By giving to others .. so you in return can receive so much more.
The things I did not mention would be make better choices in terms of diet, exercise and getting enough recouperative sleep .. not to mention maybe even a check up with your doctor. Your obvious unwillingness to respond to any motivation may be a sign of depression. THAT can be remedied. BUT.. Like the rest of my list of suggestions .. The fact remains only YOU can make that first step. No one is going to do it FOR you.
I wish you well .. and believe it or not .. I have enjoyed this little dance.
I said I "enjoyed this dance" .. given our conversation and banter on this thread .. which to ANY ONE else on the planet would be contrued as a verbal engagement...not enjoyment of your 'plight'.
If you intended to simply end this conversation by pissing me off .. Mission accomplished. Goodie for you.
If you can't afford a doctor .. then I don't know what what is available for you or where you live .. If you are social assistance, only THEY can give you some advise on where to seek help.
Good luck with that.
Your choice, I guess.
Happieness comes from with in you can not look for it with out .You will be disappointed