How do I deal with this?
I am a ftm female to male transgender. I told my mom about it when I was in 8th grade but she didn't do anything because she thought it was a phase even though I told her I've know since 2nd grade, but then the subject came up again this year in January (9th grade). she said we would do something about it this time so she told the whole family basically and she hasn't brought it up since that day. I think she still thinks its a phase still, and I really want to talk to her about this because I'm tired of hiding and numbing my feelings by pretending to be someone I'm not, but the problem is I have sever anxiety and I can't talk to people about things like this because it makes me cry and panic and I don't want to do that in front of my mom. I'm terrified to approach her in any way. I also feel like if I talk to her she'll think I'm crazy because of how everything happened the last two times I tried explaining to her.