Should i tell my dad that i don't want to go to him without my mom?
My mom and dad had a fight, i mean they always fight about stupid stuff but this one is kinda big because they haven't been talking in like, weeks, or months. My dad always travels because of his work, usually when i have school holidays after exams we all (my mom, siblings and me) go to him for a visit and we enjoy it, we really do, all of us togther. But now, at this holiday he asked me, my twin brother and my youngest brother to come to him, without my mom, i assume because if their fight. He would provide everything for us but my youngest brother didn't want to go to him without my mom so he said no. My twin brother and i said yes. But thinking about it now, i don't want to go without my mom, i want all of us to go togther, just be togther. I regret my decision so much, but i don't want to tell him that i changed my mind, yes i am scared, i am scared that he might be mad at me or that he might think this is my mom plan ( which isn't! ). The other thing is that he has another wife and i am scared that she might be there, i don't to see my step-sister, and my aunts might be there too! I hate my aunts, they always critisize me, the worst thing is that i can't tell my dad about it because i am scared, i am such a coward and it makes me hate myself, so much! I miss my dad, i want to visit him but i want my mom to come too! Their fight really shook me, What if they divorce??! i don't want that, i really don't, I'm freaking out here because i have to call him today because he told me to plan a day were we would come and i have to reply to him today to talk about the arrangments. My mom doesn't want me to go and i don't either, but i'm scared of what he will say, my mom told me to tell him (since he won't talk to her, she even apologized to him many times but he won't even budge) that she wants to come with us ( I want her to! ) but for some reason i am scared of doing so. i don't no why, i just dont want to call him and tell him but i have to because he told ME to call him. I know this is long and i am really sorry, but this is the only place where i can tell my deepest problems, i can't tell my friends, siblings and certainly not my mom. What should i do?!