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Well, I am always really tired and dizzy. So today I really couldn't go to church, I felt like I was about to pass out. Then my Dad comes in my room and says something (I can't remember what his exact words were) and then he hits my leg and asks "Are you listening?" I open my eyes for a second and then close them. Then he keeps saying what he said before for about 5 seconds, and picks me up and throws me about 3 feet from my bed. All I could think to do was scream, hoping that he realized how much physical pain he caused me. And honestly I can't remember if he flipped me or just dropped me or what, it was just really painful and somehow he managed to scratch me. It was traumatic. I most likely had an anxiety attack after that, since I couldn't breathe normally for about 30 minutes. I didn't have a paper bag so I had to use my hands to cover my mouth to breathe better (since I felt like I wasn't getting enough air). I didn't say a word during and after church (including now) since I don't really know what to say anyways. Now, my question is how do I get him to stop? He does this everytime I don't get up to go to church (and I don't really think physical abuse is a very appropriate way to get someone to go to a place in worship of God). Yes, I forgive him. I always do. I just need it to stop or I'll be even more physically unable to go to church (or school). I should probably add that I have no intentions of getting him punished or put in jail or anything relatable. Thank you, and sorry for making this such a long story to read.