I am constantly bored, miserable, and frustrated with myself. How can I combat this?
I am a gifted child with mild ADD and an executive function disorder. I always have trouble doing schoolwork, homework, and finishing simple tasks. You may find me lazy. You may be correct. I recently had my situation characterized by a therapist. She said that I am slow and miserable attempting to do work because I am exceptionally skilled in some activities and far below average in others. These conflicting capabilities lead to constant frustration, making me give up easily. I stay up past midnight every night "doing" homework. I almost always somehow manage to get it done but I am constantly bored and miserable throughout every day because I know that I'll have homework to do soon. I am even more miserable because I know that at the rate I'm accomplishing things at right now I won't be able to do the work in college and just end up homeless, jobless, and suicidal if I even have good enough grades and essays to go to college. I love life but I'm not able to live it the way I'd like to. There is no escaping America's education system according to every adult I ever discussed this with. I am considering any way out.