I think I might be depressed, but I don't know what to do.
I've felt this way since I was 11 years old. I thought it was just a part of my personality, lately my friends have been worrying about me for some reason, even though I have never told them anything about my feelings or my life. I think about suicide almost daily, and have several different plans in case I ever decide to. I attempted it a few years ago, but it didn't work out exactly, and no one found out so I never said anything. I used to inflict self harm regularly but have had to stop since I couldn't have any fresh scars at work and school. I get sick at the thought of gaining weight, and I already hate my body how it is. I don't want to tell anyone because I'm just not used to people knowing what's going on inside my head. I don't want people to pity me or think I'm weird, but I'm scared I'm going to do something that will hurt my family and friends, and that's the last thing I want.. What am I supposed to do?