Why does she think she isn't right for me?
So here is the rundown. not to sound conceded or cocky because I'm not but I've got no issues with women and generally have a few in the wind waiting for me to leave a relationship so they can scoop me up before someone else does. This at least says I'm either very attractive or treat women properly and with respect. I can assure you it's more of the second one and less of the first lol! while I am very fit I'd say I'm pretty average in the looks department. Nothing special but nothing bad either. So the reason for the question. I've chased and chased the same woman for 6 years and finally when I thought I had my chance I went for it. the moment we kissed was, not to sound sappy but magic! A few days after the kiss she pulled back though. Things are very awkward now since that day and after I told her how I have felt for the past 6 years. She also confided in me that she always held a huge crush on me and always would think us. she also tells me how much she cares for me. Now had I known this I'd have gone after her harder years ago but the timing was always way off. She was engaged when I met her and I had just had a very brutal break-up so we hung out a lot socially but rarely just the two of us. there were times here and there but they were few and far between because it was inappropriate to do so if she was with someone. just my opinion there, it kept is honest if anything. So what I'm saying here is why are there a bunch of good quality women that I should be happy with dating chasing me constantly and the only one I want is the girl who maybe isn't the prettiest (although I find her absolutely beautiful) or has the least baggage(we all have some but I would carry hers for her if I could) but she is the one that I've carried a picture of with me almost everywhere I've gone for the past 6 years to include combat deployments to Afghanistan. not even pictures of my girlfriend at the time went on patrol with me but I always had a picture of her (my crush) in my helmet or in one of my various pockets n pouches. last relevant thing I can think of is we have been great friends for years now but have lived far apart. I'm not sure what I'm really asking for here, I guess I'm just looking for any kind of advice or your thoughts. Thank you in advance. Oh, other than my job being a huge issue she also said she is afraid that she isn't going to be the woman I think she is.