I go through these depressed times need help?
I go through these depressed times where I feel so hopeless sometimes where I don't know where I belong or what I should do in life. and I'll have thought about killing myself but I've never actually pursued it at all, but ill think of it. and I'll just feel so horrible about myself and I don't know if this is on and off depression or what but I just don't understand why. and I just want it to stop. and sometimes all I think about is being excited to be with god one day so I won't have to feel misery anymore. but once I really think about dying I get scared and don't actually want it to happen. I just want these phases to stop, what are your thoughts and opinions or advice?