I don't know what I want to do any longer. My boyfriend is a jerk.
I've been with him for two years and loved with him for 10 months. I knew he was weird from the very beginning but he just doesn't want to be intimate with me at all. Some days when he comes home from work and I try to hug him he pushes me away and acts distant. other times he comes in and acts loving. every Saturday he spends the entire night with a few friends, in our home mind you, drinking and playing games. sometimes he'll be out in the kitchen, I'll try to hug him and he'll push me away and tell me to stop acting like a lost puppy, following him around. we've had sex a few times but not for several months. he won't buy condoms. IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY. he has been physically abusive towards me every once in a while. he doesn't see how miserable he makes me. I've begged him for ONE WEEKEND without his damn friends present. he calls me selfish and say that those weekends make him happy. he never takes me anywhere. movies, out to dinner, NOTHING. I live 2000 miles from my family and I don't know what to do. so I decided to write this. I'm miserable, though I love him, I want to just lay down and die. I haven't felt well all night. I want to go to sleep, i have a raging migraine but he rather spend all night with his friends.