Should I send this? Please read the details.
I composed this last night and I'm a little scared to send it.
Dear (insert girls name),
I'm writing this mainly for my own sanity of course I would like you to answer but I'm not expecting it. I can't make you read all of this but I would like you to, please. I have done nothing but love you to the fullest of my ability and I have changed something that was ugly in my being to something beautiful because of you. and through all of that you still loved me even when you left me... I want to know why you never really learned the real me though. You don't remember all the times that I said that I would change anything if it was for good, you don't have the best memory but it has never been that bad. You say I'm lazy and unmotivated then you said that you would let and help me try to change those traits, were you lying when you said that? you broke all of the promises you made to me all because you were scared, but instead of trusting the choices you had made you started doubting them and you chose to be afraid and that made you stop listening to your heart, and that led to you changing drastically not to who you truly are but to some one who is so scared of the future with some one that loves you unconditionally. And though all of that I still love you and I always will. I'm not going to be a coward and say that I'm doing to kill myself if you don't come back to me. No, I'm going to show you that you were wrong about me and about us. If I said I don't want you back that would be a blatant lie, but I will not chase you, I'm stubborn not stupid. There is a battle going on inside you and you don't even know and I can't help you. All I can do is just Pray that you will win. If you ever want to come back I will always welcome you with my arms and my Heart wide open, but until then please never forget these last few beautiful years when we were together.
I love you and always will,
(always your Kuma)
I just I felt a little better after I wrote it but I feel like I need to send it but I'm scared.