I'm really socially awkward around new people!
When I'm among people I'm close to, I talk like crazy. But at school dances or places with big groups people I'm not really close with, I get really awkward and insecure! I have always suffered from major insecurities, and everywhere I go I just imagine what mean things people are thinking of me and judging me about. It is all in my head, I swear! If someone so much as gives me an irregular glance I assume they hate me. I've read everything I can about being socially awkward and too afraid about people's opinions of you, but it doesn't help! If you're going to say "just stop thinking about other peoples' opinions of you and focus on yourself! That's what matters," please kindly do not say so. It is WAY easier said than done, and infuriates me.
I want to make new friends and go to youth group events, etc. but I am too scared of being awkward or judged. At school dances I envy people who dance and have fun. I've tried, but I can't! I go into awkward mode. I can dance, I took lessons, but at dances I forget it. Now I'm just venting, but any suggestions? Ones from people who have overcame this would be really helpful and interesting, though I'd value all. Thanks!