I don't believe in God anymore, but my family does and are very devout in their religion; what do I do?
Do I say something, or keep pretending? If I DO say something, when, and how do I go about it? I am torn between keeping up the act of believing just to keep "the peace" or at some point verbally stating that I no longer believe in God, however, I'm afraid of the type of treatment I will receive for this, and how I will be viewed for this. At one point, when my mother and father and I were discussing a particular matter, in which I was discussing what my dad had said had made me feel guilty, and that I wanted to clarify and resolve it to feel better, my mother stated that "no one can make you feel guilty, but sometimes the devil whispers ideas in our minds to make is feel unworthy, guilty, or insecure. Your Heavenly Father does not want you to feel this way; you need to get on your knees and ask him to take it off of you." I've been told this on multiple occasions, and I find it to be ridiculous, to attribute my feelings of insecurities and guilt to some unseen being, I also thought it was a way to take off the responsibly of what had been said to me, and their effects, so I blurted out that "the devil" does not whisper ideas in my head, that my thoughts and feelings are my own. (It just didn't make sense to me, and it was hypocritical with things she said primarily.) when I said this, my mother gave me big shocked and repulsed looking eyes, followed by a "woooooow" and I was treated as though I had said something insane and barbaric, and I received a long hostile lecture. If THAT is the reaction I get for saying as simple such as what I had said, I can't imagine the reaction I will get when and if I state my lack of belief in God. I do plan on trying to move out soon, and after one more year of community college, moving out, but I'm not sure if that would make telling them any easier. I'm torn between telling them and just pretending, but I kinda hate pretending. Advice? Thanks in advance.