Aw, I can understand that, you're under a lot of stress and responsibility. If you believe in God, stop, close your eyes, and know that God is right there with you, holding you and your baby in his loving embrace. This load isn't on your shoulders alone. Remember the Footprints in the Sand poem? Here's a link: http://llerrah.com/footprints.htm If you are not a religious person, calm your thought with a mantra (a few words that calm you like "I'm okay. Things are going to work out. My baby is okay. Things are working out." Take some deep breaths. Lean over, let your arms and shoulders hang loose, shake them out, stand up straight, and take another deep breath. You can do this thing! Love makes us strong.