Am I in the right relationship or holding us both back?
I might marry my boyfriend of 8 months one day. We want the same things: a house in a good neighborhood, 2 kids, & a corgi. He wants to be a police officer which I support. He'll take his kids to church. I love him dearly. He's my best friend; he gets me. We have a good balance. I trust him with everything. He respects & treats me well. Our sex life is great. I'm content with our relationship. But I'm also really scared. I fear that we won't work out. I'm afraid I'm not feeling what love should feel like. I do love him, but I don't know if I'm "in love" with him. I don't know what that's supposed to feel like or if there is an ideal "in love" feeling. When I think of the things I love about him, I cry every time because I see how much I'd be losing if I left him. I know he loves me so much. I give my all knowing that he won't hurt me. But I am terrified of hurting him. I'm afraid I can't love him like he deserves. I've told him this, & he still wants me. That's something I'll never understand. But I think that's love. I'm just scared because I don't know what love should feel like. This is the closest to love I've ever had. Am I in the right relationship, or holding us both back?