My long time love reached out to me, says he is still in love with me etc but can't put his heart on the line - did he just wana kno I care?
I have loved this man for over 3years (together 95% of that time) in a close and long distance relationship - he is my first love (he is 10yrs older) and we have been through alot together we were planning a life together, before he deployed a few months ago things fell apart in an ugly way he was very stressed n we were both scared for his safety n he took alot out on me.. I stopped talkn to him (didn't wana stress him more over there plus he said some really hurtful things), he randomly now contacted me on his bday (guess he was surprised n hurt I didn't even contact him because I usually make a big deal out of his bdays) n he told me he really missed me still loved me n that I will always have his heart.. he even half apologised (lol he is very stubborn) n we talked out a few things.. I still love him too. I asked him wot this meant, were we together were we still gona see each other when he gets home? he was a bit enigmatic and told me he had to take it slow caus he can't afford to get hurt again especially over there in the danger zone - he literally said he didn't have time fo love n anything deep right now.. he doesn't even wana talk about the future or anything, I don't kno wot to do or how to feel - he reopened the wounds n the love I was trying to suppress n now he won't allow me to express it. why did he even reach out if he doesn't wana do anything ? I'm really confused n I feel heart broken again, he pulled me back in and now he is pushing me away :(