Why can't I physically show my emotions (i.e. smiling on a regular basis)? I might have Cyclothymia Please help.
I'm a 15 year old male who hasn't been able to show emotions since 7th grade. I hit a rebellious stage that began 7th grade and ended 8th grade and I couldn't show emotion afterwards some i.e. include social anxiety and frowning all the time. I'm in 11th grade now and sometimes I even frown and ignore people I really like and it bothers because I come out as cold and heartless. My mother say's I hurt her that I don't like (I do love my mother and I really appreciate everything she's done for me) her and I tell her I do but says I never show it. At school there was this one girl i really liked (first girl I've ever liked before) and she really liked me but I just couldn't show her my affection and I ended up losing her. The thing is, is that whenever I do show emotion it's always in the extreme and for a limited period of time. Like when I'm happy, I'm super-happy for like an hour to a couple days and then it all drains out and I'm depressed and it's like a cycle. I came out with Cyclothymia in a online test I took but I don't know what to do with the results. I need help. I have a family history with depressive and bipolar disorders.