its been 27 years since mine and the pain is always there but if you make your mind up to move on , time heals mostly. It helps to talk about it and whatever you do DO NOT blame yourself or keep it all bottled up inside. Im speaking from expierience.
I wish I knew how to answer this question. I don't really know how you feel, but just so you know, there are quite a bit of people who would want to help you and any one that had been raped. It is a horrible thing that people do rape others. Though I know people have gotten over that, it is still a very sensitive topic for them.