How can I get my life back and family back?
My kids hate me my husband hates me I absolutely hate myself. my thoughts consume me I ruminate constantly I am not the same person I use to be. I fear the future which consumes my time I could be using now. I completely gave up in everything cleaning ect. I can't lice like this nomore my husband completely gave up on me we don't talk no more unless its me complaining my house is a mess in a mess it takes a lot of motivation for me to want to shower anymore. My kids don't talk nor play with me nomore they just want dad or to go to grandma's or watch TV. So I basically isolated myself and am on my phone constantly. my kids are ages 1 4 and 9. I love them to death but I feel like they hate me and I feel like u just want to pack up and go cause they my be better off without me. Same point I dint want to because I don't want then to go threw that. extremely lost on what to do counseling and meds work for some but not me I believe it makes it worse.