How can I fix my friendship problems?
I have a friendship with a group of guys (about 9 of us) and we are the best of friends. We hangout every weekend and sometimes a few times during the week. We go out and get drunk and basicly party the night away. This seems like a perfect friendship from the outside but on the inside things are different for me... see they have always been friends since middle school and i've only met them since I was 20 (im 23 now) so im the newest addition to the crew. They have a VERY strong connection toward each other of course and this is where my problem stems. We're guys so of course we crack jokes about each other, only... they only seem to crack them about me, Like im they're punching bag for their crap talking. Whenever I crack a joke back at one of them they all gang up and joke about me and laugh in my face... being a guy im not allowed to show emotion. If I do they become annoyed and basicly talk amongst themselfs and leave me out of their conversation. Its frusterating.. its only a few of them who crack jokes but the rest just watch and ignore it because they'd rather not get involved. I respect that because it is my problem and I dont want to drag anyone into it... only I wish I had someone there to help crack jokes back. Im always alone, ive never had real friends untill ive met these guys. They call me their brother, best friend... been a groom at a couple of their weddings. So why am I the only one whos the punching bag. I know im not happy. Im not my real self around them.. but I dont want to lose them. Im at a lose with myself and dont know what to do. I really need some help with this.