What can i do about this?
When i was a child, i was depressed and filled with grief. Walking down the road at midnight, under a new moon staring into the dark sky. I called upon a saviour. But it wasnt christ who meet me on that road. It was a cloud figure darker than anything ive ever seen. So dark i can see it plain as day. I feel to my knees crying scared, not knowing what to think or feel. It spoke to me. It told me to surrender my will so i can be whole. It also spoke of the progression of mankind the next step in evolution, that we are to be filled with it and it will thrive among us and vanquish them. I accepted it and since i havent worried about one thing since i was seven. I didnt have a care for anything untill i had a child. And still i feel no emotional responses, no connect to earth like i dont belong here. I cant let go of that memory. I sold my soul.