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When i was a child, i was depressed and filled with grief. Walking down the road at midnight, under a new moon staring into the dark sky. I called upon a saviour. But it wasnt christ who meet me on that road. It was a cloud figure darker than anything ive ever seen. So dark i can see it plain as day. I feel to my knees crying scared, not knowing what to think or feel. It spoke to me. It told me to surrender my will so i can be whole. It also spoke of the progression of mankind the next step in evolution, that we are to be filled with it and it will thrive among us and vanquish them. I accepted it and since i havent worried about one thing since i was seven. I didnt have a care for anything untill i had a child. And still i feel no emotional responses, no connect to earth like i dont belong here. I cant let go of that memory. I sold my soul.

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See a qualified psychologist or psychiatrist. They can certainly help you work through whatever happened in your life that gave you this illusion, or discover any underlying mental health issues if any are present.

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I've hired a shrink which told me it could of been a dramactic exprience in my life that this childhood moment was just imagination. Its just the relativity of being accepted out of no where and sucesses in my life. Before the situation, i had no friends, even my family treated me more like a problem then a loved one. After that day, everything changed. EVERYTHING.
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And I am no longer whole.. Add that to the end

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In a sense, but since then ive had friends, sucess, alot to be grateful for but its worthless. The love of family and friends is there but im not drawn to it. Its not real to me for some reason. Its like since that moment in my life which through all the time since which is 20 years i remeber that exprience.
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Sounds like you need to call Dean and Sam Winchester
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wow...O_o

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It's not over until you take your last breath. Satan doesn't own you. Repent your sins to Jesus and ask Him to help you. Read the bible and get to know Him. Whether this story is true or not, you need Jesus in your life. :)
Ps, the CHOICE is yours.

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Amen
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Hi Jerusalem :)
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Wait wut?

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powerful speech you have there

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Lmao, I am getting the vibe it isn't a speech.. I think she's being serious and she feels this really happened to her xD
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he lol
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He* Sorry. And is this legit?
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As it gets. My shrink says it could have been a dramatic episode in my life but i swear its true still to this day. I was picked on and bullied up untill that day. It was a life changing exprience. All i can remeber from my childhood before then was hate and depression. Whatever happened, skitso illusion of my mind or not changed me as a person to the point where my emotional responses and moral compass is all messed up.
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Man, as freaky as it sounds.. Sounds legit, kinda crazy if you think about it! Best of luck to you!
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Then why aren't you talking to the one person who offered help? If you really want help you would lol.
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I am. The reason why im asking is for others opinions on this subject. Maybe im not crazy and this has happens to others. Thats why im on here.
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Hi, when I first read your story my first response as an aunty was "what is a 7 year old doing out at midnight, where were your parents?" ;-)
I've read the answers in the rest of the thread and your other questions on your profile to get a better picture.
You say you are seeing a shrink, what was the diagnosis? Some type of depersonalization disorder? You mention a traumatic childhood too. Often something can happen in childhood that triggers it. Hallucinations appear very real. Are you on any medication? Its ok. You are ok, you survived whatever happened and your brain compensated. Im guessing they've ruled out epilepsy? Keep working with your shrink you can deal with this.

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Carefully separate reality from delusion. And honestly, I do not mean for "delusion" to sound derogatory. There is a real world. Any dreams, or hallucinations, or daydreams or thoughts about other worlds...they're not real. They are delusions. With training, you can learn to identify each of these.

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You can't sell something you don't have, you are a living soul. Until you accept Jesus as your Savior, the devil controls you, and he can't stop you from surrendering to Jesus. The choice is yours; eternal life or eternal death. Choose wisely.

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Excellent :)
Wish I could give a star :(
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How can you sell what isn't rightfully your. You were sold on an auction block of sin to Jesus Christ. You are not alone. I once believed and still believe at times that I am in purgatory. at those times when I believe it I have a hard time discerning what is real from what's imagined.

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