Why do I feel bad when others staying silent and I am supposed to speak up on meeing them or on phones?
I really feel bad meeting someone when he/she is staying quite, my inner force me badly to break silence,I feel I have nothing to speak, often bad jokes.I have to keep myself calm n stay relax forcefully not to feel restless. This is all to make my company feel comfortable with me.. but I really feel restless. I want others be involved in conversation. Also I smiled too much. Why cannot I stay serious? Why this hapens to me? Am I irritating?