Am I Being Ridiculous?
I'm pretty confused. I am fourteen and depressed, so it might just be that, but there's this guy I really, really like. And unless he's lying (for what purpose I wouldn't know), he likes me. He says things like "good night, beautiful" and "you're so amazing" and I feel the same way. He's awesome. It's just that he's a little too awesome, I guess? He liked this girl, but she wouldn't date him, and when we first started talking he expressed those facts and angsted over it and hasn't brought it up since. But that was, like, two months ago and I'm feeling like a rebound. And he's really close to a mutual friend (who has a boyfriend) and kind of (hopefully inadvertently) third wheels me whenever I'm in their vicinity. I would never, EVER want to disrupt their friendship, even if he does like me! Good friends are hard to come by, and he's good to her. But I feel like he might like her, which is okay, but if he does, then why would he continue talking to me when he has explicitly stated he wants to date me? As a person who wants the most out of ANY relationship, I'm just thinking that maybe I should leave them to it. Earlier in the year I'd always tell my friend she was going to date him, and she'd roll her eyes and shake her head, but they seem to click. I like them together (not that I don't like me and him together more) and I feel a little like I'm intruding. Should I just tell him I no longer feel comfortable pursuing a relationship? I really REALLY like him, but this is wreaking absolute havoc on my self-esteem and I have no dating or crushing experience. I'm not sure if I can deal.