Have I committed the unpardonable sin?
Hello everyone. I am a fourteen year old and I have been struggling with OCD thoughts for about a week, and once I got really mad at these thoughts, I was like, "Oh well, just forget about it", and I willfully made fun of the Holy Spirit in my mind, on accident. It's as if I "accidentally agreed" to do it. I don't know what got over me, but I just did it. It was in my moment of doubting on whether I should choose God or not. I wasn't really serious about it, I wasn't really thinking about what I was doing. Doesn't it have to be done with words, do thoughts really count, I didn't agree with that thought! Looking back, I would have never done it, I have been really close to God lately and I am willing to repent. I am extremely mad at myself and am really worried that I might not be forgiven. I have heard that it's OK if you thought it on accident, but I didn't. It's as if I "accidentally agreed" to do it. I have read that if you are worried that if you have done it, then you haven't, but is that really true? Please help, I am very worried and do not want to lose my salvation! If you want to joke about this, don't! You are not funny! Only serious Christian answerers please!